ABOUT TO GO BLOG CRAZY…

I have been extremely busy the past three weeks or so with various things and I want you all to know, I am about to fill you in. Be excited!

1. JESUS, MESSIAH!

I served as Stage Manager for this production and I absolutely loved it. Yes, I was stressed out at times (or all the time), sometimes I tend to be a little over zealous and I take on more things than I know what to do with… but , of course, God used it.  

Along with Stage Managing I also took on the responsibility of training the children and choreographing their piece in the play as well as helped Tiff with some of the other Choreo for the ensemble (I am telling you this not to boast, but to give you a better picture of what I have been dealing with).

Throughout this time I have been  EXTREMELY struggling with staying consistentwithhaving quiet times and feeling "spiritually dead". I have been picking up and noticing more sin in my life and somewhat helpless… I was grumbling yet… I signed up for this! I was excited and couldn’t wait to help and start getting involved yet, I was complaining and being judgemental and bitter… what the heck is wrong with me? YOU SIGNED UP FOR THIS!

Well, after lots of praying and prayer requests God met me where I was. Although I AM a sinner and I was all of these things that I was being, he helped me see the good and see his grace and showed me things I was surprised to see. Not surprised to see my sin of course, but I came to a point where I was so fed up with it, it forced em to cry out to him (I have notdone this in a long time because I am "busy"). He reminded me of what the body of Christ is supposed to look like and if one member is not in place or doing his/her job, it makes it harder on everyone else. My complaining and grumbling in my heart was NOT serving anyone, but the gifts God gave me to use were… The way everyone was working together and helping each other and using his or her gifts was amazing to watch. How kind of God to bless us with all of these different yet very useful gifts. He also renewed my passion and desire to learn and spend more time with him. The up-side of hours of rehearsals is that you get to spend time with lots of godly people who also love the Lord, thankfully, it is infectious and this morning I can NOT wait to go home a spend time in the word. The people I have been spending time with have helped me to see what I have been missing by putting myself first. I was able to pray for people, help people and teach people and I am so grateful that yet I am a sinner and I complain and grumble and judge…God is merciful and has allowed me to serve him and feel his love for me. How refreshing.

There is so much more that God has showed me through this experience but my mind is going a million miles a minute and I am not even sure if what I just wrote makes any sense…

One other thing I would like to mention, God has used this production to allow me to see how much my husband really loves and desires to serve me (which in turn helps me see Gods love for me). Weird, maybe but I sometimes wonder if this is true. Ryan was not invloved in the show but because of his love and the way he served me, he allowed me to serve and do more than if he hadn’t. One particular example… One day, I woke up late (an hour) freaked out because I was late, had been struggling in my heart with “heart issues”,  didn’t get to read as I had anticipated, going through  “female things” and  other things… well I came home from work after sitting in an hour of rush hour traffic, weary, stressed and discouraged. I walked in the door and what I saw made me cry.. literally. The ENTIRE house was clean, top to bottom. Vacuumed, dusted, organized… it even smelled like my new Momma’s Kitchen Soy Candle that I LOVE! With tears in my eyes I gave him a big hug, but, that wasn’t it… He told me that he was going to make dinner so that I could go into the bedroom and read. It is exactly what I needed and.. ahh. I’m tearing up. What a hunk.

Oh, did I mention that my DAD, King Atheist (not reallly), came to the Christmas production? WOOHOOO!!!

2. CHRISTMAS TREES

As I sat on our couch and stared at our very first Christmas Tree I started thinking: Where did this tree come from? A Tree Farm. So, We go and pick out a tree out of hundreds on this farm, this tree has spent his whole life with all of the other trees on the farm so I guess you could say they were like family. I  am sure that this tree had a bitter sweet feeling when we chose him. Happy that someone chose him, but sad that he had to leave the trees he grew up with. Where is this tree now? Decorated in a nice, warm apartment for everyone to see. How wonderful! I am sure he is so excited! But, is he aware that after Christmas he is just going to be thrown outside to die and put in a hole with hundreds of other trees that at one time, also thought they were lucky to be the chosen ones? My wonderful, cute Christmas tree just became a very depressing thought for me. How sad! How will this tree feel the day we start undecorating his well nourished branches? Somewhat confused I can imagine. Oh the tears when we take him out into the cold on a cold January. How terrible! Who thought of this Christmas tree thing?!!!!!!!

Look how Happy they are together… he doesn’t even know it’s coming. Dang Germans.

3. Wii

Do you have a Wii?  It as actually a video game system that I understand. I don’t have to figure our Morse code to make a left or to throw something. I bought one for Ryan for his Birthday. I would suggest it.

4. Ryan and I had just recently visited my good friend Kate and her Hubby *Chris in Virginia Beach where he is stationed for the Navy. We spent the day and went to the Aquarium and experienced some, well, some interesting things…

Got eaten by Sharks…

Played with Sting Ray’s (don’t they kill people?)

and the most daring thing of all….

Ate something Kate made for dinner!

haha.. .just kidding. Iwas was very delicious. Shepperd’s Pie… apparently it is an Irish Dish? I have never had it but it sure was tasty!

 

WEll, I’m blogged out. Have a good one! Enjoy the snow!