Remember when I mentioned that one of the things I would like to “focus” on this year is contentment? Well, thankfulness and gratefulness come hand in hand with contentment. If I am being discontent, I am also being ungrateful and not thankful for what I have. It is a very sobering thought to label myself as “ungrateful”. But, Of course, that is what I am each and every time I am being discontent in something.
So, the point.
Lets just say that the first three days of the New Year have been nothing short of… well… difficult? Challenging? I wouldn’t say I have been anxious through these situations because I truly believe that God will provide for me/us… like he does each and every day through every circumstance. BUT, I can’t help but chuckle and think: “Lord, what are you doing here?!”.
We spent the night in the ER on NYE. We are uninsured.
New Years Day, We had to have Ryan’s work truck towed to the shop because it will not start. Again.
Today, All of siding is falling off of our house because of the snow and the wind.
Thankful? I should be thankful for these things?
I am not sure how we are going to cover all of these expenses. I don’t know how I can deal with my pride and “fear of man” (a churchy phrase for “what people think of me”) when our house looks crappy because of the missing siding. I don’t know what I will do if something else happens. Please Lord, nothing else!
BUT-
I am thankful. I am thankful that you are my provider. I am not happy that these things are happening, but I am thankful, grateful, that you are taking care of them. Taking care of us. You will take care of these things as you have taken care of everything else.
“…for your Father knows what you need before you ask him.” Matthew 6:8
“Even to your old age and gray hairs
I am he, I am he who will sustain you.
I have made you and I will carry you;
I will sustain you and I will rescue you.” Isaiah 46:4
“The Lord is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in him, and he helps me…” Psalm 28 7
I am not telling everyone this for pity or charity. I know that some of you may be experiencing similar situations and maybe, the faith that God has given me in Him, the comfort and the peace, the truth, may also serve you. Help you when you feel overwhelmed and anxious with expenses or burdens.
Take a moment to listen and meditate on the song below. It is very beautiful. It will serve your soul.
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