Dear God,

       Why do you allow so much violence in schools?

                                                 -Concerned Student

Dear Concerned Student,

       Im not allowed in schools.

                                               -God 

Home Sweet Home?

I am very sad to be home from vacation. I really do like the beach, and my freckle count was just getting to the point where they all sort of run together to make me look like I have some other tan-ish color. Usually a week is more than enough and I can’t wait to get home and sleep in my own bed. I don’t know what is different about this time but I don’t want to be home at all. Ugh, working full time is yucky! I can’t wait to have kids and stay home with them (Lord willing), I know it is still full time work staying home, but its different.

God was so kind to my family during this vactaion. Most of you know my family isn’t Christians, The arguing, bickering, swearing, drinking, laziness…etc etc is way too much for me to handle. I can only think of one time where an arguament took place (that is a record!!! yay!). I was even able to talk about my faith and beliefs a little bit with my parents and siblings, even though a religous debate was about to bust out any minute(- had to control that urge real quick!) Its very hard to be strong in my faith when I am constantly surrounded by these influences. But, I have really been trying to test my faith, or God has really. I have been trying to be intentional on not hiding my bible, not hiding my Christian music, not not hiding that I pray and making it known that I am praying for them and other “Christian” things that I do that really really make me uncomfortable to do around my family. It is actually a little bit liberating. You see, I grew up thinking and being taught that Christianity is a cult. That it was stupid, wrong and everyone should be free to believe what they want as long as you dont press it on someone else. So you could imagine how dificult even letting my parents know I own a bible is. But I really think that The lord testing me in those areas is an awesome thing and helping me to be a better witness to my family.

I was also so gratefule to have had a Christian friend join me for a few days and a few more that visited on occasion. I felt so blessed. Thank you. Thank you. You guys don’t know how much of a blessing it is to finalyy have girls in my life that I can fellowship with and that can hold me accountable for things and to just hang out with, I have been praying since I got saved for relationships like these and I am so excited for this answered prayer.Yay God.

Well, enough randomness for one day. Back to work (did I mention that I wish i were still on vacation?)                         Ill insert a vaca pic when I feel like uploading them.

This Morning….

Every morning I set my alarm for 5:45. That is the time I need to wake up for work yet very rarely do I actually ever get out of bed at that time. Usually Im still hitting the snoooze button until 15 after 6.

Last night I was praying that God would help me wake up ontime this morning. I really needed to wake up ontime today because I am leaving for the beach after work and there were a few extra things I needed to get done this morning. So… I woke up this moring at 6:39. I had to look at the clock twice to make sure. Yup… 6:39. CrAp!!!! I jumped out of bed and started rushing arounf trying to get ready so that I am not late to work. As Im in the bathroom I start thinking: Hmmm. Why didn’t my alarm go off this moring? I know I set it. Maybe I just kept hitting snooze in my sleep. Well, my mom usually checks on me at 6 to make sure Im awake, why didn’t she do that this moring? Thats ok, its not her responsibility to make sure I am up on time every morning. I started getting very confused though. My mom came to the laundry room and she hadn’t showered yet and she is usually always a half hour ahead of me.  I decided to go to my room to double check my clock to make sure I wasnt just dreaming. Nope. My clock definitely said 6:44. Then, I glanced at the TV to check the time on the news that I watch every morning (because I love it) and it said 5:45. WIERD!!!! How did that happen. I know for a fact that my clock was the right time when I went to bed last night.         I can’t explain it. Somehow my clock changed an hour ahead of time, my alarm changed an hour ahead of time because my alarm started going off at 6:45 (5:45 real time).  Thank you for my answered prayer.. yet, I am still confused!! =) Cool story though!!!

     Im excited about this blog thing because I have never really thought about writing up my thoughts.. usually just prayers.  I know most of my friends, family and my fellow care groupers are tired of hearing the same old things  so I figure this is going to be a good release for me…if you don’t want to hear about it, dont read it.  =@)