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Random Ramble

Well, here I am again… being lazy at work. These little phases are so annoying and I just can’t seem to put an end to it. I don’t know what else to pray about, how else to get motivated, other scriptures to memorize… I just can’t understand it.

Not to use this as an excuse but… I do know that my ADD does play a little part in this. This is one of the reasons that I struggle alot with weather or not I should go back on my medicine. I really really don’t want to but, I also feel that it will help me significantly in this area. I am not saying it will totally solve the issue but it will def. put an end or atleast help some of the symptoms in which I am faced with daily. I have been praying about it but I haven’t gotten a clear answer and I do not want to do start taking it without one.

There is alot of misconceptions about ADD. There is a book in our church bookstore- a little pamflet, I wish that everyone could read it so that they understand. It is hard because no one really actually knows what kind of a struggle it is living with it. My mind is on over drive ALL of the time, I can’t relax because my mind doesn’t and I have a lack of motivation for everything. Ugh, I am getting frustrated typing about it. I know, I know, whoa is me.

I just like to type about it because I haven’t found too many people that can relate so it is hard for me to talk to people who don’t understand. I know and have faith that God will give me grace and strength when I really need it, maybe He is trying to teach me something, it is so much harder trying to fight the good fight when you can’t even focus on what that is. How is all of this related? I am not quite sure anymore, I am just rambling now. But, I would love to be able to serve my company and ultimately serve God through my work without it being a constant struggle. I don’t want to have to take a pill to be able to think and work like a normal person.

I am sure that there are sin issues also related to my laziness and lack of discipline. I am just throwing this out there also in case you may be thinking that I am not thinking that. I am just stating that there is another battle as well as thins going on that is making it more difficult to fight my desires.

What Country makes you shiver?

-Chile!

Wedding!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So… with only eight more days to go I have finally realized that I am getting married! It hit me this morning. YAHOO! I have been wondering when I was going to get excited or actually feel like this is really happening.

God’s grace has been so evident during this whole process. He has provided us with even more than I could have ever imagined. We are paying for things that I never thought would have been possible… we are even going on a Honeymoon! We are still praying and searching for a living space, I really really really do not want to come home to my parents basement. Ugh. But… if that is what God has…. I hope not… but if it is what He wants, than I just pray that he will give me peace. =0)

One thing I am so excited about is actually getting to spend time alone with Ryan. Ever since we re-committed our relationship and really understood what that meant we have spend very very very little time just the two of us. We are usually in a group or in public places or at his house with the 8 other people that live there. We no longer go to my house because there is no room and being alone is encouraged (not helpful). It will be so nice to be able to relax together as opposed to always having to be doing something in order to spend time with each other. Also, in order to try and kill our sexual sin against one another we have not kissed each other in over a year… I think it is closer to two years (we have been “involved” (involved meaning dating) for 5 years). Even though I have experienced that before, I forgot what it is like and I can not wait to be able to kiss him goodnight =0)

I do have a couple of requests if you would not mind praying for us…

Somewhere to live, and no matter where it is, we would know without a doubt that that is where God wants us.
I hate flying!!! Pray for a smooth and safe flight to and from our Honeymoon.
THat I would not be anxious/ stressed/ frustrated throughout this up coming week. That I would stay focused on God and cast all of my anxieties on him.
That our Wedding Day will not be a blur, that we will be able to enjoy it.
Pray that I don’t break out. I do that when I get overwhelmed.

Thanks guys! Hope to see you there! Saturday, April 19, 2008- 5:00 PM

Prayer Request (Follow up)

So a few of you have asked how I have been doing since I last posted this prayer request. Pretty Ironic I tell you…

For about 2 months after that post things were wonderful, mostly because I was too busy to have time to do anything else but work. I thought it was great though because I wasn’t even tempted, work was going by so much quicker and I felt alot better with my performance in the workplace.

Now… for about a month, as my wedding is creeping up I am very easily distracted by all of the things going on in my head. The things I have to do, things I have to get done, things I have to research… etc. You think I could just wait until my lunch break right?? NO. Of course not. My laziness is not as extreme as it was before, but I am becoming sneaky (I dont like sneakiness). I am really good at telling who is walking down the hall by their foot steps so I know when it is time to minimize the page.

I have had a couple victories lately. Only yesterday actually, but it is a start! I just keep praying about it and trying various applications to stop it. I am failing right now actually because I am at work writing this blog =0)

So anyway, it is pretty annoying at I get really frustrated about it but I know that God has me in this place for a reason and eventually there will be growth. Hopefully.

10 Random Thoughts

1. 71 DAYS!!

2. I’m getting sick. I hate runny noses, especially when you keep blowing and it is still stuffy.

3. I had dinner with Lisa Gill last night. What an encouraging evening… Thanks Lisa!!

4. I sent Katey Nodine her scrap book from our care-group yesterday… I hope she loves it!

5. I think that electric heaters, overhead lighting and diet drinks all combined are to blame for my head aches that come everyday at about 1:00pm. Gr.

6. God is so good. His grace is just so evident through my care-group. I have been so blessed for God to put me with such wonderful people. If your not in a care group, your dumb! J/k. But seriously, He is doing wonderful and amazing things and I am so grateful to be apart of it.

7. What happened when the Frog parked illegally? He got Toad. HaHa, I know you love it! I MC’d (I was an announcer) a Cheerleading competition two weeks ago, I do it every year. This year, I decided to tell jokes during the dead air time. They loved it. Several people after the competition came up to me and told me how much they loved my jokes. I was excited. So for those of you that think they are stupid… some people don’t!! =0)

8. Congratulations to Kate and Chris. Engaged. How nice!

9. Valentines day is going to be boring this year. We are poor. We are though, in quest to buy a house. Very exciting. Let me know if you like decorating, I will need some help!

10. Rhymes with Amen.

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So I am sure alot of you have heard about the family that was killed in a car accident over Christmas vacation by a drunk driver. Well, they are actually my neighbors. They lived a the top of my street for probably about 10 years. I didn’t know them very well because most of their children were alot younger but my brother and sister knew them pretty well.

The saddest part?? That “protesting” Baptist Church from I don’t know where showed up at there viewing! Why… “God willed for them to die because our community/state put a lawsuit on them”. Tell me that is not the most terrible thing ever!! I just don’t understand it… talk about CrAzY!!! What a great representation of God these people are showing our non believing community! =/

It is at times like these where I find it most difficult to extend Mercy, I would just like to punch them all out!

Wedding Bells!

YAY!

Help!

I am doing a project for school and I am in need of some help.

I am looking for a verse and I can’t remember where I’ve read it and I need it for the project. The verse has something to do with this: When you sin against a person, you are not only sinning against them, you are sinning against God (because man was made in Gods image). If you think you might know, please please let me know before Tuesday!!

Ps: It is not Psalm 51 or in James (unless I missed it).

How Inspiring!!!

Let me just start off by saying this…

When I was in Middle School, High School and the first year and a half of College, I was no good. I drank a lot and smoked pot on a regular basis. I was a slave to sexual sin and hated myself and everything about the terrible life that I had. The world was out to get me and I was un-happy. NOw don’t get me wrong, I wasn’t suicidal or anything like that but my life was going down hill fast. Always looking for the newest cool drug to try and the coolest bars to go to and which guys phone number I could get. Obviously by Gods grace I am no longer a slave to those things.

Today I received a message through facebook from a girl that I was friends with in High School. I have only seen her about 1 time since we graduated. She left me a message that said this: ” Hey Janet!
How are you!? What has been happening since Parkville?
I haven’t seen you since that day you came into my salon!
That was a LONG Time ago!
You totally inspired me! when you told me how you had quit drinking and partying and stuff!
Hope you are doing Awesome!”.

WOW!! I went to her facebook page and I saw comments from her friends asking her about her bible study and a link on her page to “Bible Verses of the Day”. Now I haven’t gotten a response back from her yet, but let me tell you how encourage I was to have read that. You can’t believe how perfect of timing this is.

Every-time I feel as though I am failing as a Christian something like this happens. I have a good conversation with someone at work about God, or my Dad asks me to pray for him (he’s an atheist..or was an atheist =)) or other exciting things like this that really just remind me that GOD IS AT WORK!!!!

This comment that she sent me has just totally inspired me. I don’t really have a hard time sharing my faith with my friends but I would say evangelism is an area I have no intention of growing in (ha-ha). What I shared with her about my life and my testimony reached and touched her. For some reason God used that little innocent conversation we had that I don’t even remember to do something HUGE in her life and hopefully, by Gods grace, she is no longer a slave to her sinful past either. WOOHOO GOD IS COO

Prayer Request

I have not been doing well at work. A normal person who doesnt know the lord, or even those who may, wouldn’t notice because I do do my work, but I am not going above and beyond. Actually more lately I havent even really been doing much of anything. I am lazy and addicted to the internet. I wouldnt say I am exactly addicted, but it is a big temptation at work that stumbles my desire to glorify God in my work daily.

I want to be an example of what the benifits of having a Christian work for you. Its not that I want to be noticed, thats not it. My boss thinks I do a good job because I do what I need to do. What she doesn’t know is that I have alot more time to do alot more things that I dont do because I am waistful of my time. I don’t deserve the money they pay me most of the time because I am not doing my job. I am not glorifying God by hanging out on the internet or ignoring my convictions. This had been a struggle for me since I started my new job.

For a while, God was really giving me grace to fight this sin area but I have been back sliding like whoa these past 3 weeks. I just ask that You guys could be praying for me, that I will have discipline and self control and that God will help me to serve him and better serve my boss.

Thanks Y’all.

Spooktacular Jokes

Why was the skeleton afraid to cross the road?
It had no guts

How do witches keep their hair in place while flying?
With scare spray

How do monsters tell their future?
They read their horrorscope

Why don’t skeletons ever go out on the town?
Because they don’t have any body to go out with

What does a ghost get when he falls and scrapes his knee?
A boo boo.

Why do mummies have trouble keeping friends?
They’re too wrapped up in themselves

What is a skeleton’s favorite musical instrument?
A trombone

Why was the witch kicked out of witching school?
Because she flunked spelling

Why can’t skeletons play music in church?
Because they have no organs

What do you get when you cross a Snowman and a Vampire?

Forstbite!

This is alot of fun!!
HaPpY hAlLoWeEn!!

(or Reformation Day.. which ever you prefer!!)