Baby Price #2: 16 Weeks

Well Darling, you are finally starting to allow me to enjoy life again. The nausea is slowly dissipating… I feel better with each day. I am still randomly vomiting but unlike my first pregnancy vomiting actually makes me feel better so I don’t really mind!

Thank you also for allowing me to eat healthy foods again. I really appreciate the gesture. I’m still kind of getting grossed out by vegetables (mainly broccoli) but at least im not craving fast food!! Horay!

You are getting big. Technically you are only the size of an apple but I have a distinctive baby belly that I am pretty sure didn’t show up with Lucy until around 4 1/2-5 mo. I still have only gained a total of 1lb but now that I am allowed to eat more (thanks again) that will probably change by my next appointment.

I really like chocolate and vanilla ice cream mixed together and slightly melted.

My Ultrasound is on March 16 so hopefully we will find out what kind of child you will be. Your sister wants you to be a girl, your Daddy wants you to be a boy. I honestly don’t care what you are. I might cry if you are a boy just because I really want Ryan (your Dad) to have a son. Either way I will be happy that you are healthy and a good sleeper. Right?

Just so you know, among the males and females on your Dad’s side of the family there are seven of each (officially) so you are the tie breaker. No pressure or anything.

I have to tell you also that I am a little nervous about having another child. Growing up I have ALWAYS wanted a massive amount of children. 10. I grew up a little and agreed with your Dad that four would be a good amount. Now I am not so sure.  #1- Birthing you. #2- Lack of sleep. #3- Nursing (love/hate). #4-Sleep training. #5- I’m afraid I wont be a good mother to the both of you equally. I’m afraid that one of you will feel left out or less loved. I’m afraid that Lucy will be jealous and resent you and resent her father and I for bringing another child into the family. I’m afraid you will feel like you are not part of the family.

I know all of these things are probably normal concerns and silly concerns. I know that God will help me every step of the way, like he has and is right now. I know that there is so much love in this family that you and your sister couldn’t possibly feel anything but love from the both of us equally. I know that after I birth you I will eventually get sleep and eventually stop nursing and you will be big and I will miss those things . We already love you and we don’t know anything about you. I hope you’re not ugly. Just kidding.

Oh, and one more interesting factoid. My midwife told me that after you have a Cesarean you should wait two years until you start trying to have another baby (no one ever told me that). Well, we had been trying for you for 8 months and I got pregnant almost exactly two years after I gave birth to Lucy. Isn’t that amazing?! I like to think that God was keeping me from getting pregnant because He was protecting my body from any harm that could come to it from getting pregnant too soon.

I knew that when I was supposed to be pregnant I would be and though I sometimes would get anxious and frustrated because I wasn’t, I knew that God had a reason and I just had to trust Him. Sometimes you never will find out a reason why God does what He does but I like to think that He let me know the reason for this one. God hand-picked you for me. He knew the perfect timing and when the time was right he planted you in my womb. We may not know a single thing about you but He already does. Your days are numbered and He has a good plan for you.